Tuesday, July 12, 2011

The future...


Isn't that a loaded word?  No matter if you are 21 or 81, the future is always such an uncertain thing.

What does the "future" hold for me?

Well, i'm going into my senior year of college...no that was not a typo, I really am going to be a SENIOR...in COLLEGE.


I'll have one extra semester at OC so I have a little extra time. I lovingly refer to it as taking half a victory lap:)

For those of you that don't know, the reason that I am going an extra semester is because I added Vocational Ministry to my Theatre major.  I just really feel like God is calling me to get out into the world and do his work.  I don't necessarily want to become a missionary, but I would like to move somewhere, just for a little while and do something theatre related and at the same time spreading the word of God.  I feel like my calling is to be in the secular world, but not of it, like the bible says.  I want people to see Jesus in my actions.

Now I have absolutely NO idea how this is going to happen.


But that is where you come in.

If you happen across this blog, or you read it regularly please take a moment to pray for opportunities to come my way and that I am open to seeing what God has planned for me!

on a different note..
This movie comes out in 2. DAYS.

I'm going to be in shambles.

That's all for now! :)


Friday, May 27, 2011

The Busiest of the Busys

Yes I am aware that the title of this blog is probably not proper English (it's definitely not)...but those of you who know me should be used to these funny phrases by now:)

It's been far too long since I have blogged! Instead I have been keeping up with a journal and i'm SO proud of myself for that! I know...it's a miraculous feat. 

A short update on my life is this...I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I'M DOING.

This is a good thing and a bad thing.  Well not bad, but just uncomfortable.

As human beings, we have been born with this idea that we MUST be in control of every facet of our life at all times.  We are taught that surrendering control to someone else is weak and should be avoided.  This is a lie.  I am learning (oftentimes the hard way) that I am not in control of my life. 
 My goal for this summer is to not just sit back and hope that God sends good things my way, but to actively and avidly search out Christ and pray for him to reveal purpose to me.  

Don't get me wrong, I have lots of dreams and hopes and goals and ambitions.  Anyone who knows me well knows that I LOVE to be busy with lots of things and interacting with lots of people! ( hence the title of this post) but sometimes I can use that as a distraction from other things in my life that I need to be dealing with.  I also let my dreams and my ambitions for this life get in the way of what God wants me to do.  And I know that what God wants for me is always way better than what I want for myself.  Isn't that the best feeling?!  Then why is it so hard for us to surrender to his plan?  Yeah I'm still trying to figure that out...I'll let you know if i ever do ;)

I am currently working in the Student Life office as an intern up at OC and I am SO happy to be on campus this summer!  I get to work on fun things like church camp and Earn Your Wings (I'm an Assistant Director this year!) and campus-y things like that!  

I just returned from chorale tour where we went to Washington DC and New York City! It was a really great trip! 

Here are a few of my favorite memories...
 The World War II Memorial
 President Lincoln. Love the guy.
 The National Art Gallery had SO MUCH DEGAS. I was in heaven. 
 My favorite sculpture!
 Madison Dr! Guys I'm famous.
 Our Nation's Capitol 
Thomas and Jared came with me to the indoor flower gardens! 

Overall, it was a really fantastic trip! Then I got to go home for about 10-ish days and spend time with the fam:) It was great! 

I'm looking forward to seeing where God takes me this summer! 

I'll update again soon...maybe...


Friday, March 4, 2011

Lord give me strength to make it through somehow...

These past few weeks have been some of the most physically and emotionally exhausting that I can remember.

It's in times like these that the Lord whispers strength to me and sends the most beautiful people into my life at just the right time.

Today, my dear friend Elise and her family had to say goodbye to their mother.  It was such a beautiful ceremony for a truly beautiful woman.  I am so glad that God brought Elise into my life.  She is beautiful, strong, Godly, lovely and absolutely in love with Jesus.  She is such an inspiration for me and I am so glad that she included me in this day.

This funeral that I attended today was the first funeral that I have been too since we buried my Dad.  I did not realize how hard it was going to be until I got there.  The most wonderful thing is that God did know how hard it was going to be, so he gave me the blessing of having my sisters there.  I cannot express how much having them there with me gave me strength.  I am so thankful that God lead me to Gamma Rho and the wonderful women that make it what it is.

The Lord is showing me over and over that he cares for me and that he holds me in his arms.  

I am so, so, so blessed. 


On a more upbeat, excited note...SPRING SING IS TONIGHT!!! 

more pictures to come!!

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

A Million Times Blessed

God has blessed me with the MOST amazing women in my life. Seriously. I don't know what I would do without them.  

First of all, let me tell you about my mom.  She is amazing. She is the most strong, beautiful, Godly and loving woman I have ever met. I adore her. I want to be like her. She is the best.
There she is. Isn't she cute?:)

Then as if having the best mom in the WORLD was not enough, God blessed me with the best roommates in the world.  They put up with my weird little quirks, my lack of initiative to do dishes (sorry i'm working on it), and my incessant singing.
They are wonderful.

And I swear that this girl and I were separated at birth because we are seriously sisters and soul mates.
Laura Leigh almost Vanderzee:) 
I don't know what I'd do without her.

And I can't forget this next girl.  She is an absolute joy and rock in my life.
I love working with her!

I really just have the best friends anyone could ask for. 

God has blessed me way too much:)

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Flowers, Candy Hearts and Jesus

So tomorrow is Valentines Day.  I feel like this is one holiday that every single person has an opinion on.  I mean people either go disgustingly ga-ga over it or they loathe it entirely. 

I however am in the small percentage of people who just doesn't have a really strong opinion about good ole' V-day.

I think that God calls us to love each other every day and I learned from my parents beautiful relationship that love is unconditional and that it grows daily.  They showed me that you don't need a designated day to show the one you love that you love them, but when it comes along...you should take advantage of it. :)

Tomorrow I am looking forward to loving on my friends, eating Big Truck Tacos with the girls, making a yummy dessert, thanking God for the relationships he has given me along with my capacity to love, and focusing on the relationships I do have, while praying for my future ones. 

Valentines Day doesn't have to be SAD (Singles Awareness Day), it should be filled with love for family, friends, and life:)

Love you all!

Monday, January 10, 2011

My 3rd to Last First Day of School.

Hello Everyone!  Happy 2011!

I don't know if I'll ever get used to the 2000's.  I'm such an 1990's girl. Not that I advocate bringing those hairstyles back.  Anyway, I don't really believe in New Year's Resolutions but I do believe in setting goals.  I feel like there is so much pressure riding on a resolution.  Also, I feel like most people make them just for the sake of telling people that they are making them.  Which totally defeats the purpose.  Here are a few of my goals for 2011.

1. Love More Often- Jesus gives such a strong example of love and I don't often follow it.  With a little prayer I think I can manage this:)

2. Become a Better Student- for those of you who know me, you'll know that the only way to go is up on this one;)

3. Commit to Reading My Bible-  If I can read my bible at least three nights a week (not counting for bible class) I will be a very happy camper.

4. Keep Up With Encouragement Notes- these dang things kill me every week!  It's not hard, I just have to do it.  And I can....please encourage me.  That pun was absolutely intended.

5. Take on a Healthier Lifestyle-  I am in my best friends wedding this summer and she deserves to have smokin hot bridesmaids!  haha that's so vain...but seriously.  Healthy habits and regular work out routines inspire better attitudes and daily functioning.  I could use a bit of both.

These are 5 things that I know that I can improve on.  The list my grow longer but for now this will do!

Feel free to hold my accountable adoring public;)

Wishing you all a wonderful first week of school!